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The Truth Hurts (HaEmet Ko’evet), episode 66: You Fell Hard. Now Get Back Up By Gili Man Wolner, Emotional Healer
When everything you’ve asked to clear out finally comes to the surface, it may not feel like a blessing. It can feel frightening, exhausting, and completely out of control. In this conversation with the Creator, I wrestle with what happens when resistance takes hold, logic can’t make sense of what is happening, and faith asks me to act without trying to control the outcome.
Me: So what now?!
The Creator: Someone’s angry.
Me: This doesn’t exactly feel like blessings raining down on me right now. It feels like sewage, and forgive me, but all the shit is rising to the surface.
The Creator: And what’s the problem with that?
Me: It stinks. It’s wet and filthy, and it’s spilling out.
The Creator: But you wanted it to come out.
Me: Not like this. I feel like I’m losing control.
The Creator: And what’s so bad about losing control?
Me: It’s frightening and exhausting.
The Creator: Because you’re fighting it. That fight is what frightens and exhausts you.
Me: So I should surrender? That’s frightening too.
The Creator: But it takes less out of you. What frightens you is your resistance and the negative meaning you attach to what happens in your life.
Me: Then what should I do?
The Creator: Stay calm. Accept it all, whatever comes. You don’t complain about the good things that happen to you, do you?
Me: Of course not.
The Creator: What did you do to bring those good things into your life?
Me: I did my part and held on to faith that they would happen.
The Creator: Then what’s stopping you from doing the same now?
Me: My rational mind is running wild. None of this makes sense to me.
The Creator: True surrender takes courage and faith. The rational mind can’t grasp it because it goes against logic.
Me: So I should ignore logic?
The Creator: Find a way around it. Stop trying to force everything to make sense.
Me: Are you saying my thoughts are pointless?
The Creator: Repetitive thoughts come from insecurity. You’re trying to create certainty and control something you can’t control. That only deepens your insecurity, and the cycle starts over.
Me: Wait. So my need for control and certainty is exactly what makes me feel out of control and uncertain?
The Creator: Exactly. And it blocks the possibility of miracles.
Me: Wow. How does that happen?
The Creator: You expect things to unfold in one particular way, and that expectation blinds you. You don’t see that you are getting what you want, just not necessarily in the way you planned.
Me: What does that have to do with miracles?
The Creator: When you cling to a single outcome, you don’t allow me to surprise you. You leave no room for miracles.
Me: Honestly, the best things in my life were the ones I never planned or expected. They really did feel like miracles.
The Creator: Exactly. Your responsibility is to keep moving, trying, learning, creating, and bringing things into the world. But you also have to let go. Learn to trust and act from faith. Then things will turn out even better than you expected.
Me: So what’s falling on me isn’t sewage? It’s confetti?
The Creator: It all depends on how you interpret it.
Me: Ha. That’s playing a little dirty, isn’t it?
The Creator: You’re the one who asked to clean things up. Ha.
Me: I get it. My job is to get clear about what I want and surrender to whatever comes, even when it doesn’t look good to me and I don’t know how, how much, or why?
The Creator: Well, look who’s brilliant this morning.
Me: Of course. Must be the confetti…
The Truth Hurts, episode 66: You Fell Hard. Now Get Back Up
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