The Hebrew word for money, kesef, comes from kisufim: deep longing, yearning and desire. From there, according to Gili, comes its spiritual meaning. Money is the energy of wanting, an expression of your will to receive, to give, to create and to make things real, and not only something material. That’s why a block around money usually points to a block in the wanting itself, or in the inner belief that you’re allowed to ask, to receive and to enjoy.
The way she sees it, our inner relationship with money matters just as much as how hard we work. Some people work extremely hard and still struggle, and for others it’s the other way around. There’s no point declaring “I live in abundance” if every time you buy yourself something you feel guilty, because the gap between the words and the feeling cancels them out. Real abundance, in her words, is knowing at any given moment exactly how much you actually have in your account, without running away from it.
If you’re afraid to open your banking app, that’s exactly the reason to open it. If it hurts, that’s the sign that you need to do it again and again. The small practice: instead of focusing on what went out, look for what you got in return for every expense and give thanks for it. This isn’t only psychology, she says. It builds new pathways in the brain.
Most of the time the block isn’t really about money at all. It’s about worthiness, how much you feel you deserve to receive. A mother is the first person who ever fed you, and if you didn’t feel that you got love from her without having to fight for it, that can stay in the subconscious and affect your ability to receive financial abundance as an adult too.
In the episode on competitiveness Gili adds that competing comes out of insecurity and out of wanting to prove yourself, not out of any real recognition of your own worth. In a true consciousness of abundance there’s no room for competition, because everyone has their own color and their own energy, and you can’t take what belongs to someone else. And hard work isn’t necessarily the road to success. That isn’t a dismissal of a strong work ethic. It’s a reminder that other forces are at work too.